Hanging fire

I am fourteen / and my skin has betrayed me / the boy I cannot live without / still sucks his thumb / in secret / how come my knees are / always so ashy / what if I die / before morning / and momma's in the bedroom / with the door closed. // I have to learn how to dance / in time for the next party / my room is too small for me / suppose I die before graduation / they will sing sad melodies / but finally / tell the truth about me / There is nothing I want to do / and too much / that has to be done / and momma's in the bedroom / with the door closed. // Nobody even stops to think / about my side of it / I should have been on Math Team / my marks were better than his / why do I have to be / the one / wearing braces / I have nothing to wear tomorrow / will I live long enough / to grow up / and momma's in the bedroom / with the door closed.